I found a place to sit and pray and wait for the pain to go away. Instead a friend of mine came in and so we chatted. Yay! I needed a distraction. She then asked me how I was doing? Noooo! Why? I am fine until someone asks me that! I don't know what to do. Yes I need to talk but, again, it is a can of crazy mixed up emotions they are opening. Uh oh! Here come the water works. Okay yes, now I am totally blowing it on keeping it cool. Now what do I say?
How many of you have been in that situation? It is like a huge nuclear meltdown at the power plant that is your mind. This meltdown I wasn't really able to talk it out and after she left I wondered if I should have said anything.
Pity party for one.
When I made it home and cooking 3 different lunches a knock came at my door. Another friend was at my door because that first friend ratted on me. Ha Ha. So sweet right? On the plus side, just them caring does make some of the ache go away. I don't know what to do when I hurt from head to toe and my emotions are out of my control. It might be time to go back on medication but I hate being in a fog all day! So much out of my control. Grrrrr!It makes me so mad! There is someone out there that feels like I do. I know it. For right now though I am not ready to spill the beans. Why me? I know we ALL ask ourselves this when we have a hard day or when life is just hard in general. So if you are like me here is what you do. Throw a party!
- Get some paper or your computer and just write. It is good to get it out, especially if you don't feel like talking.
- Grab your favorite treat like chocolate or any comfort food really.
- Watch a movie or listen to music.
- Wrap up in a blanket or put on a cozy sweater.
- Most importantly, remember that you always have tomorrow! It is a new and hopefully brighter day.So lets move on...
If your feelings aren't drowned out by the above suggestions you may need medical help. Depression is not a joke! I know I suffer from it! Seek medical help quickly if you suspect that you do. It okay to have your party but then, check yourself out of this party for one.
|Oh yes I can eat the whole thing if I want to!|