I haven't done my recap of 2015 yet! I know it is a little late since it is almost march!! What?!!! Time is just flying by! Last year was definitely a challenging one. It was a year of discoveries and seeing each member of my family differently. By differently I mean I did not want to change them to fit a perfect mold of what I have in my head. Each one of them is so unique. Each one of them can be very strong willed and we had many battles of wills. These are battles where no one really won. Instead I learned to take my fights to God and trust that it would all work out. I now know what it means to really pray and to take my time. I learned that God sends angels into your lives. I didn't know I would meet a particular group of woman this year that would be just what I needed. I could confide in them and they gave me strength and encouragement. I would be writing a very different story if it weren't for these woman. I have seen tender mercies. I really have! Things are still difficult but I have hope and I have seen changes in myself and my family. I know now that I can be courageous and strong when all I feel like doing is giving up. Yes, even when all seems like it falling apart and I couldn't bear another minute. I have relied on so many scriptures but Helaman 5:12 is one of my favorites!
"And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the arock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your bfoundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty cstorm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."
I will not fall if I rely o him. At times I may fall apart but the Savior is right there to pick up the pieces. I didn't know it but looking back at each of my posts last year, it was me trying to make sense of the storm going on in my heart and mind. I love blogging! Thanks for being on this journey with me! Check out my top 5 blog posts for 2015. Hope you enjoy!
1.Each child is like a work of art
2.My hands are not yet what they could be
3.Day 12 for 31 days of May-keovers Elimination becomes illumination
4.The one and only trick to find balance in Motherhood
5.31 days of May-keovers in 2015- 20 facts about me
Monday, February 22, 2016
Monday, February 15, 2016
First, I have really been trying to get rid of clutter. I have been working so hard that my body keeps quitting on me and I have to take a few days to rest. Such is the life of a chronically ill person. If people really knew what it took for me to get up and out the door most mornings; then maybe, just maybe they could understand me a little more. I have been judged so many times by my house keeping. Everything I do I have to work at. I have to work to keep healthy. I have to work to keep up on the house and keep up the peace. A friend brought me a note and a gift. The note said Mama said there would be days like this. DON'T GIVE UP! The Lord will help you. Mama didn't tell me there would be weeks, months like this! Does anyone else feel a little overwhelmed with life right now? I know the Lord is helping me but why do I keep having to look my depression, illness and other demons in the face? I am gripping to hope and reading my scriptures and praying for help with my children and just staying afloat.
Not to mention I feel a heavy weight to keep up a happy face and keep trying to make my home a heaven on earth. I have a child right now that is anxious and has a lot going on in his/her little brain. It has caused so much extra energy just to keep it together. Sometimes I lose it. One day it hit me that just because my kids are acting like monsters, I don't have to. I can still try to turn it around. There are 2 choices. You can either be an atmosphere angel or an atmosphere beast. What do I mean by that? We as wives and mothers can set the tone for our home. We have the ability to use our inner beauty, talents and abilities to make our home that place, that heaven on earth. We can be a promoter for good and be the back up our family needs. Also within us are also our tendencies to become angry and frustrated. It is the part of us that temporarily loses feeling and kindness. We are more likely to see problems and look at our loved ones as the contributors.
President Monson says "Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved."
I love this!
Which ones are you? Are you more angelic or beast like most times?
Yes, my friends, each day is a choice. You have a choice to make the best of your day. You choose how you act and what you say. You don't have control over what others do, illness, or events in the day. However we can fight and not give up. Tomorrow is another day. My only hope is that my words will bring some comfort to you and know that you are not alone. That friend that you may be comparing yourself to, the one you feel you can't measure up to, they are not as perfect as you think. What changes have you been wanting to make, but you keep falling short of your desired result? I have a few. It is time that my happiness blueprint gets a remodel. I am making some major changes and it is going to take time. Any one who has remodeled their home knows it is time consuming and hard work. I already feel like a wrecking ball has swept through my home so hopefully the hardest part is over! I am pulling it all out and putting in all new products. You don't want to see the before pictures though! ;)